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[miz_anneliese]

The word for the day is Integrity.



This word showed up in a dream I was having this morning - wherein my employer's Punisher was punishing me for not changing out some dead plants in a front hallway for live ones, and instead of spanking me with a leather paddle like she normally did (which I admit, I was quite excited about), opted instead to carve this word in the small of my back.
She used a perfect amount of pressure to do it, though I made her stop just as she was finishing the "y" at the end, and it came out skewed. She said if I hadn't made her stop, she would have made a fancy "y", with the tail of it ending in a flourish just at my tailbone. I remember precisely the look the blood had as it soaked my red shirt and the way we angled the mirrors so I could see the carving.

Odd dream. Also included was the reason why I was working in this place with a front hallway, which was the death of my mother. I HATE those dreams.

Comments

[normanrafferty.livejournal.com]

Freaky. O.o

[kmkibble75.livejournal.com]

Your dreams are far more interesting than mine.

[cag.livejournal.com]

I bet faeriecat could give you that for real.

[miz-anneliese.livejournal.com]

Mom says I should find out how to say it in Sanskrit and get it tattooed :)

I'm still pondering that dream. It was vivid and I can't figure out what generated it. Nearly everything else I can pinpoint something going on that kicks off my subconscious, but I can't exactly tell where this one came from.

[cag.livejournal.com]

My guess would be your disappointing review,

[miz-anneliese.livejournal.com]

Yeah... that seems so easy, though, and I can't correlate the sexual overtones with work. Then again, I'm having a wild flirtation with someone at work (though different company, now, just same building), so maybe that's where that part came in.

[cag.livejournal.com]

Perhaps you have a burning desire to be punished for something?

[mzollo77.livejournal.com]

Geez kid. I thought it was pretty obvious. Read again the 1st definition of 'integrity'. Your Magick has directed you towards integration of your Malkuth self and your Kether self. So to speak, in other words, quit fucking around and chat up your HGA. Hmmmmm, let's see! Use intense and passionate, possibly painful, Sex/Magick to release your hang ups about being little miss responsible. Go ahead and let your chains and hang-ups (ahem represented by *Moi*) die so you integrate your *selves*.

Now you and your priest can take it from there. I hope you can, in fact, take it ...... somewhere.